Stay with me...

I don't want to fall asleep

2009-10-29T19:05:54Z

Starting anew.

New clothes, new school, new city, new people.

(If only I can actually leave behind the pain)

Keep moving forward.

(Somehow, I'm still awake....

All because of one glorious piece of angsty fic =.=off_theground is a darn good writer)

Rants, rants, rants....

2009-06-19T15:44:30Z

PriestestOfNox haven't updated her fics since April...

Even the remarkable ones have to stop because of something. What about us ? What about a nobody like me ? It's not there yet, but there will be a day when I lost the key to the door. The question is, when that day come, will I have the strength to walk away ?

It's confusing, every minute that I lived...

Everything I used to know had changed. That's what I know for sure.

So, it's impossible to know when a hurricane will come and take everything away, right ?

The past can't be undone. I got to be strong. I got to tell myself that everything will be alright. That everybody love me but they won't be there for me. It's my life and I'm living in a display case. I always have been, always will be.

It's all a matter of faith, isn't it ?
Another thing that hasn't changed: I'll always have the last laugh.

The purest kind of love ever expressed through movies. I watched and every minutes passed, the atmosphere get colder. The sad rhythm of the theme song tell us all about what the story exactly is. It's tragic, beautiful, gentle, sweet and inspiring at the same time. How many people in this life wish they have the power to inflict changes over others ? Numerous. But there are people who simply wish to change their life and end up changing others's too. Jamie didn't want to change anything, she just wrote her ambition as 'to witness a miracle'. Next to others's, her ambition seem strange, but that's what made her stand out. And unknowingly, Landon became her miracle. Their story is like a shooting star. It's short-lived, but that's what made it so beautiful, juts like how the best song a bird ever sing is also the last. Jamie did not die, she lived in Landon. In all of the things Landon did because of her. The breaking up, the making up. The embrace of friends and family. If it wasn't for Jamie, Landon wouldn't have a chance to see his friend, his dad and his life in a completely different way. And so we have the power of faith.
We can believe in change. It doesn't need to be good or bad. It just necessary.

There's no way to say for sure if everything we felt is right. But there is nothing as 'coincidence'. If I say I understand you, I'm not lying. But what I say might not be true. Faith is a strange thing. If we have faith, everything will come true. And I mean everything. That's why we have an illness called 'Mass Hysteris'.

Ugh, there's no way I could do this. I'll continue tomorrow.

kisekiss @ 2009-06-16T18:27:00

2009-06-16T12:33:13Z

Okay, love his talent, his accent (all of it), his devotion to his wife(yes, a wife and a kid, or is it 2 ?), his hair, his skin. To put it bluntly, Dr. Frankenstein will kill to have some of his body parts...To find out who this guy is, look below....real below....

Found a little game on Jing-chan's 4rum.

1# Shimon
2# Yorihisa
3# Tenma
4# Yasuaki
5# Takamichi
6# Inori
7# Eisen
8# Tomomasa
9# Suefumi
10# Akuram

1st step: fill in from no.1 -> no.10 by names of random characters (anyone you likes), for example: above is the sequence the Hachiyou appeared on Harutoki the anime (as in my clip - Your Guy)
2nd step: answer the following question:

1. On a school day, 2# came to class and didn't do his/her homework, what will 2# tell the teacher ?
2. 7# catch 8# eating 7#'s bento box,what is 8# gonna say so 7# let 8# off the hook ?
3. It's Valentine Day, 9# gave 1# chocolate, what is 9# gonna say ?
4. 10#'s purse/wallet is stolen, what will 1# do ?
5. 3# just finished a movie script which tells about 8# và 10#, what will 3# names it ?
6. After a late night out (ohohoho), 1# wake up next to 4# , then steps in 6#. What happen next ?
7. 3# run away from home, he/she stay in a hotel, by some ways 2# knew and call 3# , what will 2# say ?
8. If 9# turn into an animal, what is it ?
9. 6# is in charge of dinner for the whole group, what kind of dishes will 6# choose... ?
10. In 4# and 5#'s wedding, when 3# is saying 'And you may kiss the bride' , 2# come running in, step on 10# who is lying on the floor 'cause he/she's drunk and shove 5# away, take 4#'s hand in his/her and says......? What did 2# say ?

Note: OOC is legal.

Abe No Seimei in the film 'Onmyouji' - this is Natsume-chan's work.

It's pretty obvious why I chose this one...

Blame it on me.

Sendhil Ramamurthy, Masi Oka, Greg Grunberg from Heroes - my 3 favorites guy goofing off.

Ignore the 'Patriot of The Year'. A little mistranslation lead to this stupid thing >.<

Karl Feiyong from Blood + .Natsume-chan is obsessed with him.

It's Karl Feiyong, wearing his traditional outfit (he's Vietnamese, by the way). Made by Natsume-chan (or Natssama)

Karl and what-his-name (William?) made by me. Fanart not made by me. But I chose the cover and I'm proud of it XD

It's Natsume's image of herself. Made by Nats <3

Yakkun is covered. My bad. But it works.

Nats-chan say the fanart fit 'Supermom' better. But I already made my choice.

Sendhil Ramamurthy a.k.a. Mohinder in the TV Series 'Heroes'. The only Indian actor who play intelligent scientist (geneticist) that is not annoying. And Mohinder is the hottest scientist EVER!

On June 22nd, I will take the entrance examination to RMIT University (all in English), I feel rather stressed, but I know what I have to do. I learned a lot from people around me, even if they are bad ones or good ones.

Also, I read something that was rather discouraging: 'Trying is a first step towards failure.' It's on an avatar of a lj user. Bleh! If we don't try, then we can never dream of success. Also, it's rather discouraging to know that even if I success in the entrance exam, I'll probably be stuck in a school full of spoiled, rich child, players, Paris Hilton wannabes...etc. That's not going to do wonders to my image. It's bad enough my old classmate think of me as a girl who got everything she ever wanted. *sigh* Can I have a hug, Eichan ? Thank you...*hugs*

Yeah, I did say my 'old' classmate. I graduated from school. Oh yes. Yes it is. It feel wonderful because at least we share the same feeling about a matter. They don't have to be polite to me out of spite and so am I, and we all think that's a relief. They think I don't know what they are thinking because.....well, I'm not a psychic. But what they don't know is that maybe I am. Wait till I get back all the stuff they've been borrowing me.

Anyway, hope you have a good day. Bye.

What a day.

2009-05-19T13:28:54Z

*cough* Not trying to imply anything by the icon...Below are another rant, you can read or not, that's your choice, and after reading, you can comment or not...but watch yourself. It's my emotion you're dealing with. But I don't want to bother anyone with this.

Hi, so is everybody good ? Yes ? No ? Whatever....nobody's interested in the fact that a feelings of a 18-years-old is hurted here..forget it.

And to neechan, the only person around here that gave me support. In the end, she end up spoiling me. Sorry, neechan, I'll try to take care of things myself from now. I will try not to bother you anymore. Thank you because you were always there...and goodbye.

P.S: (you don't have to answer my messages, I know what you mean, I always do)

Well, back to the main point. This is a journal after all.

So yesterday I watched the Hannah Montana episode: 'You Gotta Lose That Job'. Seriously, season 3 isn't much fun to watch. And then I got to the part when Lola/Lilly told a joke but Hannah/Miley and Robby Ray didn't laugh. There's laughter in the background but I don't think it's amusing. Lola then said 'I laughed to yours.' and then I felt 'poor thing, always being the 'not getting any attention' character even though her acting skill is brilliant'. Then I thought 'oh well, it's supposed to be funny, that's why it's a sitcom'. Then I think about it some more (when the show's over) and I realized even though Lilly supported Miley through almost every crazy plans...Miley don't always think about Lilly's feelings first (in season 3), like when she begged Lilly to kiss Rico so she can has a dream date with Johnny (Corbin Bleu)....And I know Lilly is supposed to be the 'uncool' one (not to mention stalker). But look at the situation in 'You Gotta Lose That Job'. When Lilly said the joke, there's background laughter, and I laughed at it, so why the heck didn't Hannah and Robby laugh ? I think it's rude, not to mention Hannah is Lola's BFF. So that create a bad image about the main character in a very senstitive subject - frienship. Remember the saying 'good friends made good people', or 'show me your friends and I'll tell you what kind of man you are' ? ........ Oh, you mean when a character said a not-so-good joke, you must not laugh at it so people will laugh at it more. What an obvious plot device.
Well, I'm not sure why, but the scriptwriter is losing it, really losing it in this season.

Another thing, about friends. Yes, that scene in Hannah did that to me. I just been wondering about my friendship with...a classmate. A girl. Her name translated to 'Aura' but she prefer to be called 'Iris'. Whatever. She's kind of bossy. No. She's very bossy. She's afraid of ghosts and rumors but she also like to badmouth people. People as in 'everyone', actually. She's always trying to be nice to me but she pay no attention to my feelings. Words is not enough to describe her. I always have this kind of..thinking that no matter how annoyed a person made you feel, there's always something nice about them. Even though her words are cold and bossy, that's just her way of helping people. So I pushed away all the uncaring words and kept all the good intentions that it carried. It didn't turn out the way I planned. Like I said, she like badmouthing people she don't even know. When I'm with her, she badmouth some girls. And I know when I'm not with her, she will badmouth me too. But I got used to it since 'the Grassland accident'. Then I realized she will not change, and she badmouth people for fun. So I stopped thinking good thoughts about people and focus on improving myself to show her (and peoples) what I'm capabled of. Along the way, I realized that I failed. No matter what I do, she will keep the same opinion about me. I don't know what that is...'failure', 'future beggars', 'spoiled child'...? Probably something she look down on.
I realized that because...one day, after she got a bad illness, she told me that the doctor advised her to not go into water. But her swim coach was strict, and he accused her of skipping lessons for fun (she skipped because she was ill). She was very passionate about swimming so she said she would go practice later that day. I told her to forget about the coach and to stay at home. My parent was a doctor so I'm worried that her illness will return, not to mention this is a very important time for us students. Plus, that coach was mean and unfeeling, thinking badly of her like that....So I told her to stay at home. Do you know what she said?
She said: "You said that because you are used to being an irresponsible person, I can't do that."
SERIOUSLY. WHAT.THE.HECK ?
SERIOUSLY. WHAT DID I EVER DO TO HER ?
I hate her now. I tried to see the good point, at least I tried. I succeed. I've come to love her as a friend. But look what I got in return. None. I tried to be a decent girl who always see the good thing in people (because people these days aren't interested in it) and LOOK WHAT I GOT. OH YEAH. IRRESPONSIBLE. WONDERFUL PORTRAYAL OF A FRIEND WHO ALWAYS LISTEN TO WHAT SHE SAID AND TRIED TO HEAR WHAT SHE DIDN'T SAY.
SO WHAT IF I DID DISAPPOINT SOMEONE? EVERYBODY MAKE MISTAKES! WHO TOLD HER IT DIDN'T HURT TO SEE THE PAIN ON MY PARENT'S FACE ? I ALWAYS TRY TO QUESTION MYSELF 'WHAT CAN I DO TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT'. I'M LOST. BUT IT'S NOT THE POINT. I'M TRYING TO SEE THE GOOD THINGS IN PEOPLE - NOT JUST ANY PEOPLES, MY FRIENDS- AND LOOK WHERE IT GOT ME. SHOULD I JUST TELL THEM THAT LIFE'S NOT FAIR ?
You (whoever you are) know what ? For years I've admired Batman because of the 'people deserve to have their faith rewarded' attitude. Maybe I should switch to Joker's 'people are only as good as the world allowed them to be' attitude. It's agonizing and I have my limit.

Back to the real world. I got homework. 1 week and I'll be waving 'bye-bye' to this school. Then Iris and Grassland....that depend but they'll get what's coming to them.

From me to you.

2009-02-12T14:12:44Z

I've decided to try something different in life.
I think I can become a better person.
I don't want to let some silly fear stop me this time.

Maybe hotel managing's a good choice ?

Goodbye for now. Until the final exam.

Another day, another rants...

2009-02-07T09:58:06Z

The Internet here is dead for several days....boy, am I glad to be back!
Everything has gone back to where they were before. Most of it. There's choices to make and chances to take....so it's kind of wear me out.
So, being afraid of changes is a really bad thing ?
Talk about irony...the person who told me that is the same person who hated my new look. And when I say 'the person' I mean THE WHOLE CLASS (except some cute people in the back seats). It's not 'new look', it's a tiny haircut and new earrings since I can't wear makeup or jewelry at school.
Really, what did I ever do to them ? They've been going on and on and on about the cross-shaped earrings. Dubbed me 'Allah'. Really entertaining.
*sigh* That's what happen when you gave the wrong impression.
Nats-chan is into the ItachixHinata pairing these days....and Jing-chan is getting an interest in shounen-ai pairing. Welcome to the club XD
Speaking of which, new plot bunny. Again. To self: NEVER.Gonna.Happen.

kisekiss @ 2009-01-31T22:12:00

2009-01-31T15:20:15Z

I'm really scared now. Scared of that threatening letter I wrote myself.
It is like a real ghost is haunting the thing. I can't wait to get rid of it.
What's the point anyway ? Shouldn't just dump the thing to the garbage can, I'm not that kind of person. But I'm having second thoughts about giving it to her.
Oh what the heck, she won't become insane just from this, will she ? This city is different from Western cities where plenty of threatening letters come and go...this town is peaceful, too peaceful I fear by doing this I'm breaking something.
Oh I'm breaking something alright! My shell. This year, I'm not going to left anything unsaid.
Either way, I'm going to give it to her. Tell her not to open it until she get home. Don't want her to lose control and have an accident.

Random Quiz, took in order to calm myself down.

How's that for irony...I don't pretend, did I ?

Some people bring out the worst in me...

2009-01-31T12:50:58Z

Once again. It's her.
Okay, previously, I said that I did mean something for her...I take it back. How can I means anything to her if she never listened to a word I said ??? Because if she had listened, she will know that I'm not a type of person who can be 'not a best friend but still a friend'. Because I know nothing will ever be the same. I can hear her giggles while reading that message. I know she is doing this only to make her, probably her parents, feel better. Sorry but I make my own choices. My parents don't have anything to do with this. It was supposed to be between me and her. Now the whole school knew about our breakup. She want to make it big, don't she ?
What's the point ? I know my breaking up with her is really bizarre because she is the annoying one but I'm the one who suddenly exploded and said 'bye-bye'. It's like she is the torch and I'm the fire. The ironic thing is that I always think I have to put myself down 'cause that's the primary thing in a relationship. And so the reason for my putting up with her insults is because............
That's just it. My mind go blank when I come to this sentence.
I warned her to leave me alone. But she continue to show up with that giddy attitude. If only she listened and see me for who I am, she will know what I want to do to her at that time. That's it. I'm sick of those people. I will not push away my wishes for them. And my wishes is for her to suffer.
I know there might be consequences, but this is something I truly wanted : her suffering. The threats will come to her first thing tomorrow...Hope SHE get the message.

Look like these days this journal got nothing but rants....I will get my writing mood back. The love for writing and creating things that weren't there before's still there.
Love you,
Lady Lunaticeon ( just want to show off my new username ^^ at www.fusionfall.com - a MMORPG)

P.S: but please, call me Pu-chan or just Pu. That's still Imouto-chan for you, neechan *hugs*!

Decision.

2009-01-28T12:11:21Z

So here's the situation:
I stayed up late to write the chapter I promised Nats-chan I will complete. Then Mom came, Dad's drunk so she went to sleep with me. I put my fic aside, and think about it in bed. In the morning, I was so busy with things that when I finally have time to type the chapter, I forgot the most important ideas ! It was when the King talked about Eisen with Tomomasa.....something...it's so vague. Nats-chan isn't going to be happy.
Beside that, I managed to solve The Secret Of The Scarlet Hand all by myself, no hints. It's a intriguing game, with some fascinating elements (though most of them are not true) from Mayan history. I love game and books with a historical setting, explain my addiction to Harutoki and Narnia.
By the look of it, I will not be able to finish the 2 AMVs (about Narnia and Harutoki) in time of the vacation. When school open again, there'll be no time to do it. I always assure myself I can do it, but I have to choose. I can't let anything affect my result again, whether it's bad friends or unfinished business.
Okay, it isn't as serious as it sound. I still be updating my journal with fics. After all, my 360! page refused to help visitors when it keep showing them the old entries instead of the latest ones.
Ja ne!

Happy Lunar New Year!

2009-01-25T16:54:03Z

Before the New Year started, I just wanna say :
WHAT A YEAR!
Really, it feel like my foot is on fire. So many thing I want to do and have to do.
I will stay up until the clock tick past number 12.
Recommended fictions for times like these :
Origami Parade Yasuaki/Eisen (I love this author! Check out Hush and Behind The Bushes)
misslola89's Challenge Response Peter/Edmund and Caspian/Edmund
The comedy show is surprisingly good this year. I can die by laughing too much, especially when the Celestial Emperor do beat box.
This singer's song calm my soul. Check it out when you can, it's good! It's a song about my country: 'Bonjour Vietnam' By the way, it's in French.

Get this widget

Track details

eSnips Social DNA

A new year start now. As Nats-chan said: "A new you but same old friends."
Happy Lunar New Year. Best wishes to everyone.
Five minutes....

kisekiss @ 2009-01-24T10:13:00

2009-01-24T03:24:46Z

Today is the cleaning day. I'm forbid to turn on the computer unless and until my room is cleaned. And here I am wondering if I should charge my Ipod today....
In the Lunar Calendar, tomorrow will be the New Year's Eve. There will be fireworks. Now where's my camera (inner voice: you'll find it AFTER you cleaned your room)
Really, it's not that messy compare to my brother's.
This year I finally get something 'girly', much to my parents's surprise. It's not much, several earrings, bracelets, a bottle of nail polish(it's black, which is why my brother yelled at me earlier). I think I'm fine without these but maybe they will smile more if their daughter finally listen to them. Parents want to see their kids know how to 'take care of themselves' included knowing how to use a lipstick, I guess ?

Good day, everyone ^^

P.S : Someone reviewed my AMV...er CMV. YEAH!

It's too late to apologize...

2009-01-23T15:31:15Z

*notice her AMV has no comment* =.=
Oh well, can't force people to like what they don't.

One funny thing I noticed earlier when choosing the subject for the entry :
A friend of mine was singing the song 'They', when she get to the part 'I'm sorry, so sorry...', another friend who was nearby sang 'It's too late to apologize...' (it's 'Apologize' by One Republic) XD
Good night.

I'm sorry, so sorry...

2009-01-23T15:25:23Z

My Mom went to speak with Grassland's parents today. Gave them gifts and talk about the preparation for Lunar New Year's Eve. I will not presume anything, but Mom said Grassland cried when she talked about me. Maybe I did mean something to her.
But it's already too late. She did say she still can't understand why I broke up with her. Of course, it's not a matter of understanding, though it's no rocket science. My heart don't care if I'll never see her face again. And it's not her fault. Not anybody's fault but it's mine. Hope she's happy now.
Great, now my status is 'Anti-social' again....

Anyway, the member of my family can say something very stupid (not that i've never said anything stupid in my life)...
Dad: now I get it, you're not supposed to take a shower when you're drunk, right ?
Brother : I'm gonna get 3 new cell phone, one to store work-related numbers, one for friends and family's numbers, one for chicks's!
Mom : (nothing but she just said 'Is it okay with you?' about 15 times when we went to the mall)

Nats-chan told me about the movie Onmyouji. The actor is really beautiful. We watched it on Veoh. Unfortunately there is no sound since brother took the speakers to his room >.< The onmyouji is Abe no Seimei ^^ who is portrayed as very confident, brilliant and seem to know everything that will happen. He has a friend name Minamoto no ....something. He is a talented flutist (remind me of someone....^^) and is very clumsy, sometimes naive.
I was going to watch the movie but Mom said I should go out more =.= I'll go when it's necessary.

Here's the trailer :

Good night everyone!

kisekiss @ 2009-01-21T16:51:00

2009-01-21T09:56:07Z

Finally. Enjoy!

Now I need a little rest...

kisekiss @ 2009-01-21T16:10:00

2009-01-21T09:29:47Z

Phew. At last the Batman x Robin AMV - or CMV - is done. Have to admit the song is a bit cheesy. And the storyline - if there is one - is a little not as I expected. On the other side, the clips went rather well with the lyric. I tried to use different clips so the viewer don't get bored =.= Other BatxRob in Youtube always use clips in 'A Matter of Family', 'Strange New World'...and some Teen Titans ep (Masks - for example) I HATE THAT >.<
The CMV is being uploaded. The link will be available. Now I have to work on the Harutoki AMV. And see if I can create a fanvid for Narnia (Caspian x Ed? Peter x Ed?) with such few clips.

Later, friends.
And something for you, neechan ^^ I found it the other day.

kisekiss @ 2009-01-20T00:06:00

2009-01-19T17:21:05Z

Okay, so I'm working on the AMV 'Broken Heart - a Batman x Robin AMV' using 'You Must Have Had A Broken Heart' by Westlife and my computer is going to be a huge obstacle. It keep on stop working after I put a clip into a timeline or add some affects. And I have to open Task manager and close the programs, then restart, add some clips or add effects, it stops working, I close it...

The whole night I managed to get 1 minutes of clips placed (not sure if it's correct because I didn't turn on the music directly but I listen to the ipod when matching the clips with the music so....) and there's still 3 more minutes of the songs.

But it's going to mark my comeback to Youtube. Wait for it!

Good things the Harutoki clips is on the other computer (the one which is still working effectively) so creating the Yasusen AMv is going to be a bit easier. Chosen song: Memories by Within Temptation. Gothic rock 4ever!

Good night to you.

Picture of The Day:

Want to know why this come up ? Turn on screensaver with Pictures Slideshow set as Random in your Harutoki folder and there it go, bring back memories ^^

Speaking of which, what happened to the caption contest ???

kisekiss @ 2009-01-18T19:11:00

2009-01-18T13:52:17Z

Let two bishounen give you a happy lunar new year wish!

And beware Eisen's puppy dog eyes which is asking you "What's your new year's solution?"

Mine is :"Not going to left anything unsaid."
Including "daisuki, arigatou" to btamamura-neechan, my friends and others who had visited my journal ^^

I went to a barber shop because I want to get out of my 'Tomomasa' look, going to post a picture of me and my new haircut soon. Now I look like a kid >.< so unlucky.

Tired and frustrated. Trying and failing. Sleeping and dreaming. Lighten and darken. Hoping.

I'll do my best.

Disclaimer: the fanarts aren't mine.

My friends

2009-01-06T12:34:43Z

"What is a friend ? A single soul dwelling in two body."

I know it's fictional to find a friend like that in my case so here's my definiton of a friend : "A friend is who we want to use teleportation to get to their place when one of them, included you, are lonely."

I don't know what's wrong with me and my communication skill anymore. I believe in the 'mirror theory': "If you smile at a mirror, it will smile back to you". That is my own way and I intend to live my life my way. But it's harder than I thought, like I said, they didn't see who I am, they didn't even want to.

And what has to be, will be. I broke up with my BFF - Grassland (I translated her name) when the New School Year started and I have known her since 6th grade. I was lonely and she kept me company. Then we became BFF. We do things together and learn from each other. Each is other's BFF. But I have absolutely no regret. Just a little pain. But through that pain, I know that she deserve this. She deserve to be punished by my breaking-up with her. I don't know what am I to her anymore. Senior year is hard for both of us so I want to make it easy for her and decided to mind my own things. Still it's so hard to hold on to her when she don't seem to has control over her anger. She is open in her feeling, I used to think it's a double-edged dagger and it really is.

While I struggled to keep my mouth shut in order to not saying something that threatened our friendship, she just keep on rambling about my advantages and her disadvantages, about my seat in the School's English Team. I know it's what stress do to her, she is a teacher's kid after all. But I'm not an angel. I feel pressure too. But I held it back, not saying anything for the sake of our friendship. It was one line in 'The Dark Knight' that kept me going : "The people of this city deserve to have their faith rewarded." But then I realized one thing. What does she think I am ? A object which she can ask favors of and use to relieve her stress and anger whenever she want without caring about my feelings ? Wake up, stupid girl, wake up. She isn't worth it, this friendship isn't worth your time, this isn't worth anyone's time. How long can you keep your real feeling in ? How long until you realize that she has wasted too much of your time ? She said herself that she got 'other plan' all the time isn't she ? Then let give her 'time'. Do yourself a favor and break up with her. You gave her your trust, you can take it back. This is your life and you have much better and more important thing to do.

So I broke up with her by leaving her a message. She didn't understand, she didn't want to----I just asked her to leave me alone. She sent another angry message, accused me of starting fights lately, being unreasonable and said she couldn't understand what she could possibly do wrong. Yeah, right. I was always the one who is at fault, she is always innocent, always can't remember what she did. (When we were still friends I always want to find time and talk this subject over with her - just because we are friends- but I never got the chance). From the message, I got the conclusion that she is a stupid girl. But now that I think about it, she forgot about the mean things she said to me but remember about the times when I got mad at her (usually lasted about one day). That maybe the proof of her selfishness, cruelty and coldness. Either way, I'm glad to have gotten rid of her.

But I still had to paid the price: the shock from this event led to the fall of my scores. I almost couldn't take part in the National Contest because it required my scores to be above 5.0 for all subject. Ans she is still the 'A+' student. Maybe this punishment is nothing to her. Maybe I mean nothing to her.

One thing is certain that she is jealous of my life, my family (she said it out loud). They don't control me much and they are rich. In fact, they are stingy like most rich people are, Well, at least they are richer than her family so she got a reason to be jealous. On the outside, father and mother adore me, showering me with PTDs (Public Dislay of Affection). So is her parents >.< but her father don't call her a 'whore', does he ? Does her father hit her mother's head like mine ? Don't think so. So what the heck is her problem ? Jealous ? Hey, you want to know the secrets of life ? It isn't fair. Most people just care about themselves. Nobody owns you anything. I own her nothing. So better stop rambling about something that can never be and be grateful for what I have right now.

I know but I fear that this might happen again. Especially now, when everyday, everybody's words remind me of that man's cruel words. That is the main reason I broke up my friendship with Grassland. She and that man and that boy have one thing in common. I don't think it is wise to keep thinking about this now.

One thing for sure, I will never make the same mistake with another friend. Especially the cute lady whose username start with a 'b' sitting in front of the screen right now. The world need more people who is ready to listen. Seriously.

kisekiss @ 2009-01-06T17:23:00

2009-01-06T11:06:14Z

*point to the icon* See it ? I'm in a very bad mood now so I will get straight to the point.

Today I have crossed out the name of two person in my harem. To them: lately, it's get so hard to hold on to you two. Against this harsh, cold world, this feelings don't stand a chance.
And to one of you, the person who is clueless to my feelings: I thought I could changed the world for you - heck, I even changed myself - but I was wrong. You're not the person who encouraged me to change. But believe me, I liked you for a whole different reason, but I think I deserve much more. I have to move on.

Goodbye, Lee Jun Ki.

And I'm so over you, Danh.

My life is offiial messed up. I wasted times , efforts and money only to receive a question mark. I don't know my purpose in life, how can I get through my days, or what I want to be. I need time to sort out my feelings, but time is what I don't have.

But I don't want to lie to myself anymore and that want is too great it's tearing me apart.

My friends...they didn't see my true self when they looked at me. What they said about me when they thought I'm not listening and what they tell me to do, what they say about the thing I read, the thing I wear and the thing I do... it's like they are talking about a whole different girl, they don't know me, they don't care about my true self! And here I am thinking if I treat them right, they would do the same for me! I assure myself that sometime the world can see you in a way that's different from who you are and that I don't care, just act like I never heard them say those...things. But what was I supposed to do ? Pretend that I'm deaf, smile like an idiot each time they say something which is clearly insulting ???
Seriously, it's times like these I feel so grateful to have met people like my cousin (Two Phoenix) and btamamura-neechan. Thank-you to you two.

I brought ficcies <3 <3 <3

2008-12-25T14:00:30Z

Consider this token of my gratitude for enduring my bad personality for a year.
Warning to all: very bad grammar.
Comment, plz. *puppy dog eyes*

Title: Crush.
Category: Harukanaru toki no naka de.
Genre: Humour/Romance/Fluff
Rated: T.
Status: One-shot/Completed.
Note: Alternate Universe – similar to “Sign”’s.
Summary: Crossover with Meine Liebe and Pirate of the Carribean – no I’m not s-i-c-k thanks for asking. Nothing too serious. It is a crush.

“Wow! So this really is that compass!” – Tenma said enthusiastically while leering at Eisen.

After failing to get it back from Tenma who is too excited to examine it, Eisen sigh, turn away and look for something to clean the mess made left from the Xmas party. Needless to say, it is a big mess since Akane and Ran decided to invite some guest from another dimension. Well, many other dimensions. It could be worse if Shimon didn’t suddenly said ‘karaoke’. Since he was too busy talking with Orpherus-san -about music, of course- Eisen don’t know the detail, but in three minutes, about time Tenma came back from the bathroom, the room was cleared.

‘Creams are all over the places…Though Akane-san wouldn’t want me to do it, there isn’t that much thing to do. It’s Christmas, everyone deserve to go out and have fun. Even Yasuaki-san is…’

He smile at Yasuaki’s name and think of ways Yasuaki will spend his first Silent Night (Eisen like to call Christmas ‘Silent Night’ ^^ cute), Eisen can’t help but detect a little loneliness in the air. Suddenly Tenma say his name. He answered “Hai?” without turning back since he is still looking for a cloth of some sorts.

“This compass is incredible beautiful! Too bad it’s your.” Eisen turn to him at that.

“What? Oh, no. Just now the compass was lying in the doorway. I picked it up because I want to return it to...this gentleman…whose names escaped me.”

“What are you doing with that Jack Sparrow’s compass ?”

“Yasuaki-san!” – Eisen immediately blush when he realized how excited he sound. The fact that Yasuaki noticed it – and just smile softly- did nothing to decrease Eisen’s blush.

“Jack Sparrow? You mean this is the same compass that can tell people the direction of what they desired most ? Sugoi!” –Tenma stare at the compass while Yasuaki just nod.

Eyes wide in excitement, Tenma opens it. The needle give out very strong vibrations while pointing behind him Tenma is confused, what he desired most is behind him in this room ? His mind did a quick scan of this room and let put it this way : there are two valueable object in this room : his present –along with others’s- and the cake. Actually it is a quarter of the ‘original’ cake –there’s no way Tenma want it- and the presents is in front of him. What about the people the he desired the most ? But Akane is not here, it’s just him and Yasuaki who is standing by the door way and Eisen who is behind him, cleaning something … wait…
”NANI??”

Tenma turn back and is greeted with an innocent stare from Eisen which,oddly, he found cute. After a moment of awkward silent, then Yasuaki clear his throat…

“NO! IT CAN’T BE !!” Tossing the compas to Yasuaki, Tenma ran as fast as he could, out of the room, the doorway and out to the road. (by the way, the party is at his house)

After recovering from the suddeness of his action, the two Genbu look at each other, puzzled. Eisen think for a moment, and sigh when his head started to hurt. He turn to ask Yasuaki if the compass is not broken, startled when Yasuaki turn it upside down and a huge amount of sand is pouring down from it. Eisen wonder how can a small compass can hold so much sand.

“I think Jack-san own you a thank-you. I am worried that he’ll blame me, though.” – Eisen chuckled quietly when more sand come out.

“It’s that man’s fault for getting sand in it and dropping it in the first place. You don’t have to worry. I’m still unsure about Tenma’s problem. This much sand must have hindered the compass’s system and made the needle point to his back, leading him to mistook you as his ‘most desired person’ and freaking him out in the process.” – Yasuaki said matter-of-factly.- “Fortunately.”

Eisen resisted the urge to asked Yasuaki how did he learn to use the word ‘freak out’. His blush returned before he managed to blurt out “I-I see.”

A click, then Eisen look up to see Yasuaki put the compass in his hand. Eisen blush at his smile.

“Well, check it before that man come back.”

“Oh, Jack-san is not your favourite type of people, is it ?”

“No.”

Eisen return his smile, then open the lid of the compass.

His face can’t get any redder, I tell you.

“Yasuaki-san…wh-why is it pointing t-to the fr-front……….is it still…broken?”

His heart almost stopped beating when Yasuaki move behind him. The needle follow Yasuaki’s direction and he can feel Yasuaki’s breath just above his ear. It’s like a warm fireplace is just lit and spread warmth around their heart.

Suddenly, a hand touch his face, fingers tilt his chin and lips are pressed firmly against his, pure warmth spread over his whole body. When their lips parted, Eisen is glad he didn’t drop the compass.

“Isn’t the answer obvious ? I feel the same way.” Yasuaki whispered.

“Merry Christmas, Yasuaki-san.” He tighten his hold on Yasuaki.

“For the sake of the author, I think ‘Jolly Holiday’ is good enough.” There is no hiding the happiness in his eye.

They smile. The taller Genbu bend down to steal another kiss while a street band is switching to a new song…

~~~It end here~~Jolly Holiday everyone!

Title: Feeling Shows. (strongly suggest listen to the song while reading this)
Category: Meine Liebe.
Genre: Romance.
Rated: uh…T ?
Status: One-shot/Completed.
Summary: A moment in Camus and Ludwig’s bed.

“Lui, I love you.”

“You can say that again.”

“C-cousin Ludwig ? You’re a-awake ?”

“Hmm. What happened to ‘Lui’?”

“I-I…”

“Camus, say it again, I want to hear it…”

“Lui…”

“Good, now the other part.”

“Lui…”

“I’m waiting.”

Camus quickly place a soft kiss on Ludwig lips and soon they forget what they were talking about.

Title: Bittersweet.
Category: DC Universe.
Genre: Romance/Angst
Rated: T
Status: Completed.
Note: Slash! If you don’t like seeing your childhood hero in a relationship with a person of the same gender, you might want to keep out.
Summary: When Cyborg is acting strange, Robin return to Wayne Manor, to Bruce’s waiting arm…Merry Christmas.

Sometimes he wondered. If Chrismas is a time for family, what will happen to people with two family ? He often argues, Bruce is more like a lover to him. The Teen Titans is his family and the Titan tower is his home. But maybe not today. It’s Christmas and he is at Wayne Manor, with Bruce holding him and kissing him so carefully. Then he wrap himself in the blanket and said teasingly “Good night, papa.” And Bruce has an interesting way of saying “if you say it again, you’re going to be sorry”. Not that he mind.

Hours later, in spite of Bruce’s embrace around him, it’s hard for Richard Grayson to not feel empty when he read Cyborg’s message.

Got something to tell you, Robin:

I love you

When will you be coming back ?

By the way, Merry Christmas. Tell the Bat I say hi.
--Victor

~~~~End~~~

Let just say I like the Cyborg x Robin pairing too. By the way Richard “Dick” Grayson is Robin’s real name, just as Bruce Wayne is Batman’s and Victor is Cyborg’s. Cyborg is Robin’s friend. Teen Titans is the group Robin formed in order to get out of the Batman’s shadow (brave kid ^^, one of the reason I like him)

Title: A Night to Remember.
Category: Crossover between Pokemon, seiyuu, Naruto, Legion of Super Heroes, Getbackers.
Genre: Humour/Romance?
Status: Completed.
Rated: E for everyone.
Warning: OOC. Alternate Universe.
Summary: “And the special award for Best Bishounen goes to…” Dedicated only to my BFF Jing - keep moving forward!

“And the special award for Best Bishounen goes to…”

“Hey Hinata, how about when I go up there, you give me a kiss in front of everyone ?” – Ruby said winking his eye.

“Yes if you’re joking and no if you mean it. Honey, you said yourself that you are not here for the award!” – Hinata put down her fork.

“Of course! I know my ability-I mean look- well, there are others who deserve this award more than me such as Hibari what-his-face who is sitting over there…”

“And the winner is….Wallace – Pokemon Trainer, Guardian of the Awakening Temple!”

“WHAT!” -He feel like jump up to the stage and have a word with the speaker but Hinata held him back. Wallace is not here yet. She beckon him to look at Steven who look like he’s trying to reach Wallace but unable to do so.

“Ruby Norman – you’re a grown man. Act like your age.”

“You know what, honey. You are cute when you are right. Hey Mr. Speaker! I’m Wallace’s friend! Can I deliver it to him?”

“The name’s Akira Ishida, amigos. Sure you can. Now let get this over with so I can return home to my Hoshi-chan!”

Hinata groans.

Later, at Wallace’s house-------------
“Good, Ruby dear, now we give him back the award, and you’re still the prettiest boy in my eye.”

“Well, how about the hot tub when we get back home…ouch!” – Ruby dodge a pinch from Hinata and knock on the door.

Here come the beautiful water trainer, walking gracefully to greet the guest and smiling gently when he learned the good news and…

“Oh my goodness! Not again! Not another award from that freakshow!”

Ruby and Hinata blink. Wallace pay no attention to them and keep on rambling…

“You know…..they should have hand out this award to other low-level bishounen like Brainiac 5 and Superman or that Getbacker with spiky hair…or you.”

Ruby’s glare wake him up and he stammer: “Sorry? Did I say it out loud? That must mean one thing: I have to go to my ‘healing chamber’ now. Au revoir!”

A moment of silence.

“Should we take this Best Bishounen statue with us?” – asked Ruby.

“Of course.” – replied Hinata.

In the mean time------------

“Hello? Is that you, Wallace?” – Steven said worriedly

“Welcome to hell. I am Gaara.”

“Sorry, got the wrong number!” A click is heard.

~~~~~End.~~~~

To Jing: Sorry it was poor-written. I wrote it in a haste ‘cause my parent is calling me to dinner.

Ruby: care to explain why I didn’t get the award ?
Kisekiss: let’s face it Ruby, you’re married!
Ruby: then why the hell did that old man Wallace get the award ?
Kisekiss: I tossed a coin.
Ruby: very funny.
Kisekiss: I know. Happy Holiday everyone! See you next year ^^

Only 3 subject to study ^^ Wish me luck! And for my beloved friends, especially btamamura-neechan, Natsume-chan and sailorlight-san, Happy Holiday!!

*go back to study Chemistry*

Tadaima blush It's a feeling of deja vu...

2008-12-17T10:14:51Z

(Just learned what "deja vu" means ^^ )

It's been a long time since I have written in my journal. School has a way of keeping people busy. And guess what ? the semester exam is going to fall RIGHT on Christmas day. Why am I not surprised ? From the beginning I know the principal is crazy,crazy,crazy just like anyone who comes from NHS High is supposed to be.
Although it's not what I'm worry about right now. It's...well to make it simple...

List of things I'm worrying about right now:
1. Revision for the English Competition.
2. Revision for the Semester Exam. I am expected to received a Good Report Card, not an Average Report Card or an Excellent Report Card so pay attention.
3. Improve my social skills, especially with the teachers. They misundestood my intention and they don't know who they're messing with, but for now I will avoid causing any conflicts with them, especially the Literature Teacher, she's stupid and sly at the same time, like anyone who called my father 'cool'. Bleh. Anyway, I just need to make the person who talk to me feel pleasant.
4. Write the next chapter of "Sign" and a short fic for Natsume-chan. For friends.
5. Make AMVs ( or is it CMV?) about Batman and Robin with 'You must have had a broken heart" ,also a Yasusen AMV with "Memories" by Within Temptation.
6....oh shoot, translate Jing's Pokemon volume 29...and find her some information about pollutions...
7.....

Okay, to cheer up the mood, how about another list ? (I think I read too much "Princess's Diaries"...not )
List of concurbine in my harem ^^ (pictures coming later)

1. Saga no Gemini (Saint Seiya)
2. Morita (Honey and Clover)
3. Hyuuga Neji (Naruto)
4. Eisen ( Harukanaru toki no naka de )
5. Hyuuga Hinata (Naruto)
6. Camus Pfalzgraf von Silvaner Lüneburg (Meine Liebe)
7. Aslan (The Chronicle of Narnia)
8. Superman/Clark Kent
9. Batman/Bruce Wayne
10. Robin/Richard 'Dick' Grayson
11. Lee Jun Ki (Korean Actor)
12. Ueki Housuke (The Law of Ueki)
13. Brainiac 5 (Legion of Super Heroes)

And here's the newbie : Brainiac 5 ! (he's so kawaii, don't you think?)

The teaser to the next chapter where definitely Tama-chan will appear:

"I'm sorry I'm not as selfish and stupid as you to think of that 'resolution' before...but how long can you pretend that mere force can make Eisen submit to you ?"
( can you guess who just said that?)
"Of course, I am...I mean I used to be your student even if that was years ago"- Kaim closed his eye dreamily-"I know how it really is to fall because of the 'mere force' you were talking about..."

Second passed, and a chuckle was heard. "But I guess you still beat me as this subject."

"Time changed things. Look in a mirror." - Deep sigh. "I already lost one precious person and I won't let..."

"My apologize, Tama-chan. To answer your question before : yes. Why? 'Cause I love him. How? Because you spoke of him with such affection in your eyes that even I had not received before, it just made me curious. Akuram's request gave me the chance to meet him in person and when I saw him -BAM!- it was love at first sight. So in short, you're the one who's responsible for everything that had happened so stop talking like an angsty superhero."

"No. I am talking about how much I wanted you to get out of here." -Her eyes show frustration. - "Your brain is just as empty as your heart. There's no point in negotiating with a brainless captor. Beside, I have done my part."

"What do you mean you're done your part ?"

-----------TBC--------------------------

It's a long way from where we are to where they are but as soon as the exams is over, I'll get right on that. Hopefully in time to celebrate new year.

By the way, the oni's name is "Kaim". It has no meaning really. I already decided that he was Tama-neechan's student. In this world where Akane and the Hachiyou once again assume the duty of protecting peoples against Akuram, there is at least one difference, as the demons are already recognized as 'foreigners' and are accepted, it's just Akuram's personal mission to go against the Miko, like an evil organization, and it give me the chances to write things that the series missed out on (though I still don't know if I can do it)the potential of the oni clan, but of course, the story is more concentrated on Yasuaki and Eisen's blooming relationship. That's why Kaim was created, not only to form a love triangle, but because I want to show my own insight into the oni clan. So the fiction is now Alternate Universe, I must admit I moved the characters here because it will easier and more fun to make them go around, but I also want to implicate that the war will never end until 'some people' realize that 'oni' and human are alike.
This is where Kaim come in. Tama-neechan trained him to be an expert in using weeds and vines to protect people. But being the devil-may-care kid he is, he became a mercenary, just because it is fun and he 'want to see all of the world'. This is the reason he argued with his teacher, because according to her, his naivety (or 'stupidity') would only cause him trouble when encounter with other things that exceed his little knowledge - "plants are what we are, and plants don't move around". In my opinion, maybe he just want to escape and find somewhere he belong to - another emphasis on the truth that human and oni are alike and should stop fighting. And when he meet Eisen who represent water - "the eternal flow" - he found some sort of connection and come to like him, and, eventually, want him. Too bad Yasuaki is in the way ^^

Speaking of which, I overheard some rumors that in the upcoming Harotoki Live stage,Yasuaki is going to die. That's major bad news 0.0 I don't know how but they better prepare a good explaination for his death.
I think more information can be obtained here : http://www.gamecity.ne.jp/stage/

It's a pity to have to go after just getting back home. But it have been lovely to free my mind by writing on the journal again.

Have a good day, and in case I can't be there with you in Christmas : Merry Xmas!

Happy Birthday!!!

2008-07-06T15:35:41Z

This afternoon I went to watch Narnia : Prince Caspian with my friend. She was so excited to see it that she insist on inviting me who didn't get to finish the first part of Narnia >.< But I enjoyed it and something unexpected happen : I fell in love with Aslan ( for some people who don't know who is 'Aslan' - he is a lion and king of the kingdom of Narnia ) Here's his picture:

But, I felt bad. Today is Eisen's birthday but I just add a new concubine in the harem ( I already explained it before ). So I decided to write something that can cheer him up but then I ran out of time ( don't worry Eichan, I got everything in my head ).

So I can only post a....a....a birthday card for my beloved Eichan ^^ remember : I love you, whoever you would have been, need you in my life ( do you know this song ? ^^ )

So, good night ^^

Riot!

2008-06-15T16:22:35Z

Yesterday btamamura-neechan said that I can watch Harukanaru live stage on www.veoh.com ^^ it was awesome !! The effects are good and the actors aren't that ugly (sorry >< I know you all have worked really hard to give the characters a life ) even though Eisen's actor don't look well in his hairstyle . And I enjoyed the play ^^ and are happy that it wasn't just a mere adaption. A fun moment was when Yorihisa and Tenma went down to the audience ( I think they were chasing an onryou and they asked the audiences if they saw a onryou ) and then Tenma asked a girl "Who is your favourite Hachiyou?" ( I'm just guessing ). She said "Yasuaki desu", Tenma looked very disappointed and then staggered toward the stage ^^

I'm so gonna watch it again. Oh, I must thank btamamura-neechan too ^^
Arigatou gozaimasu, neechan !!!

When the play end and the actors come out to greet everyone... the actors who plays Eisen and Yasuaki hugged each other. The question is not 'what did they do?" but "why did they do that?"
Well, my theory is this :

The Suzaku pair : putting their arms over each other's shoulder => friends
The Byakko pair : standing next to each other in a fighting stance => companions
The Seiryuu pair : look like they were having a staring contest => rivals
Suefumi : a graceful bow => the most talented dancer in this country
=> the gesture they are showing indicate their relationship and personality. That must be it.

Then what is the relationship between Yasuaki and Eisen ???

Yesterday I chatted with my friend ( and my uke ^^ if you're wondering ) Natsume-chan. it turn out she is sad about her family. I wrote a Yasusen fic ( if you can call it fic ) for her and she come up with a new idea ^^ I think it's funny

It's not really a fic ^^ it's just like a funny dialogue. There's many story that she and I use this way to create.

Note : a lot of 'OOC' and my poor friend made Yasuaki her concubine ( Eisen is my concubine too ^^ ). If you don't mind, please continue ^^

Nat (sleepy): uwa...where's my Yakkun !? It's so boring! There's no one to play with me! (start to seach everywhere even in the garbage can)
Karl (Blood +) (appear + evil face) : that fortune teller has cheated on you...
Nat (mumbling) : 18th...
Karl : What, your majesty ?
Nat : 18th...It's the 18th person to have 'left' me...
Karl (hold her hands) : don't you worry, even if there's no one in this world who want to play with you (insolent! ) I will still be here for you
Nat (touched) : Karl....... oh, why is medusa here ? (look behind Karl's back)
Karl (turn back) : The fortune teller !!! I thought you got stuck in the sale off department ? (it's crowded)
Yakkun (his hair stick up) : mondai nai... even if you trick me into going to the 90% sale off department, I still have away to get out, better luck next time
Nat : Ah! "Puppy" Yakkun returned !
Karl : My....my....queen... stop... please don't go...............onegai!
Eisen (appear behind Yakkun): This person is the Poison Queen ?(^^Nats-chan like that nickname )
Nat (jump on Karl's body) : Aah! what is that ? (pardon her, she have never see a pure being before *sobs*)
Karl (take advantage of the situation) : as expected, I was right... that fortune teller betrayed you !
Yakkun (stare angrily , lowest voice) : Onmyouji...not fortune teller, you stinking vampire !
( OOC >< )
Karl (knelt down before Nat): whatever... but I'm the most faithful... now what did you tell me you are...? Om...om...?
Yakkun : O-n-my-ou-jiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.................
Yakun (turn to Eisen): Eisen, this is the person I have mentioned Nat-sa...... WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO EISEN !!?
Nat (put Eisen on a plate with fruit and vegetables): ah... I thought I've just found something delicious (turn white) however (angry face) it's not enough compare to the fact that yo betrayed me (then smile and turn to Eisen) right, Eichan ?
Eisen (surprise + help Nats to put fruits on him) : Ah... there's only one person who call me 'Eichan'... how ?
Nat: I know I know... No doubt it's your "Puuko-sama" ...( 'Puuko-sama' = me ^^ it;s me, it's me! )
Nat (pretend to be in pain + use Karl's overcoat as tissue) : sniff... recently sniff Puu sniff ko-sama is in sniff sick sniff bed sniff everyday sniff she sniff keep calling sniff Ei sniff chan sniff Eichan sniff 's name sniff
Eisen (thinking) : ??? in the end I don't know what she's talking about... -__-
Yakkun : You misunderstood, your majesty...
Nat (interupt ) : Don't! Don't say anything... You have broken my heart, a girl's heart, a weak, frail, gentle heart, but I don't blame you.. get out ! go away ! Right now! It's the end of you and me (blow her nose into Karl's overcoat)
Yakkun : (ack)
Eisen : As a matter of fact Puuko-sama asked me to deliver a message for you, but on the way here, I saw Yasuaki stuck...
Yakkun (whisper) : Eisen...!
Eisen (rewrite): I got stuck in the sale off department so... thanks to Yasuaki ohhohhohhoh (do nothing but laugh...)
Karl (interrupt) : if both of you got stuck, just say it!
Nat : Puuchan's message...so suspicious (open the letter)
Content : it's my Eichan, isn't he cute ?
Nat : Is that all ? Finished?
Eisen (search) : oh shoot... That's Puukosama's new motto... this is the real letter
Nat (ack): what's this "Dear my lovely Nat-chan ... \come to my party at the mansion tomorrow...miss Nat-chan much. Signed Puuko................P.S : please bring as many concubines as you can
(At the party)
Puuko (panic panic): Where's Eichan Where's Eichan Where's Eichan
Nat : I don't see Yakkun anywhere,neither (teary eyes, looking as if she lost her saving books )
Karl (when Puuko go elsewhere) : Nat-sama... (pull her to the balcony) cat last we can have a little peace... I want to speak with you
Nat : Karl.................................. you forgot to turn off the light before you get out?
Karl : no, it's not that
(back to Eichan)
Eisen : Yasuaki, we can't be like this anymore ... I think...
Yakkun: I don't want to, neither, but no one will understand
Eisen: especially those two...
Yakkun: "Is there any other way to tell people that we already are a couple without having to answer many question ?" -> that's the spoiler of my fic
(back to Karl)
Karl : you are so cruel, leaving me for that wizard...
Nat : uh... it's onmyouji
Karl : ok ok. Shaman then
Nat (stop talking)
Karl (put his hand on her shoulder ,pull her close) : Nat... just feel it, don't look at me, just feel it
Karl : don't say anything, just feel
Nat : uh... excuse me... you said don't talk but... you heart isn't beating so I can't feel anything...
Karl: don't take it literally
Nat :
Karl : now we...
(Puuko pass by to ask if they find Eichan so the they are interrupted)
Karl (wait for another 5 minute then start talking): there's only us here...
(Neji throwed The Eagle King out from the Hyuga mansion, unfortunately, hit them )
Karl (throw him back) there's only us here so...now
(Abe no Seimei passed by looking for his student :"Have you seen Yasuaki? )
Karl (point to the graveyard then continue): now there's just us here so we can spend some time for each other.....
Nat (open her eye) : uh what did you say? I was sleeping, can you repeat ?
Karl (don't know if it's because of anger or embarrassment but there's smoke on his head)
Karl (decide to stop talking, because there's trouble everytime he open his mouth) (pull Nats close, one hand at the back of her neck) lip pout, no .... just going to touch
Sol : Karl, you're here.
Karl: ACK
Sol drag him away.
Karl: Let me gooooo... Naaaaaaaatttttttttttttsssssssss
Nat: (sobs): look like they left me
(one hand put on Nats's shoulder + a sympathetic sigh)
Nat : Puuchan, did you find Eisen ?
Puuko (her tears's falling like a waterfall) : please don't ask... I saw what I shouldn't see
Nat : look like we are on the same boat
Puu : Now what ?
Nat : Take them back ?
Puuko : Take them back ?
Nat : yup, take them
Puuko : ah...... understood
(too evil eye in the sunset, set its gaze toward two couple , poor them, this time it will be the end of them)
Karl : what couple...
END ?

Pardon me and my friend's imagination. We are out of responsibility for any trouble while reading this. Thank you.

I must say I really like the new icon ^^ with little Eisen clinging onto his brother's sleeve ^^ Also for anyone who like to read the Chinese version of volume 14 Harutoki then...

http://www.17kk.net/intro/8746.htm

Just click the line with the number '14' in the lower section. Then click the first character on the right of the 'page selection button'. Something like that. Enjoy!

Good night!

And don't worry, neechan, everything will be alright!

Edit : I fixed it >< turn out Nats-chan like to use the '<>' so it caused some problem with the script in this page *phew* About the spelling mistakes, it's because I was tired >< and careless. Please forgive me >

Advertising time ^^

2008-05-24T15:55:20Z

When I was looking for a fanart site about Jiang Wei and Ma Chao, I came across one site. At that time, I was atonished by the drawing style. But this time, I believe I've found a hidden gem. The color, the concept in those arts, it was purely wonderful!
Anyway, I just want to introduce you to a wonderful fanart site. So let cut to the main point, chop chop! Here's the address : http://homepage2.nifty.com/67touru/

I personally like this :

These images are not mine. And if you want to use them ( I bet you do ), you have to credit the site, okay ?
To the site's owner : I don't know Japanese so I can't write to you. I don't know if you're still a fanartist or maybe a professional mangaka, thank you very much for creating these wonderful things. As Neil Gaiman said "The world look brighter when we create something that wasn't there before."

Thank you for watching ^^

Welcome back, me!

2008-05-24T10:31:20Z

Good afternoon, minna-san! The second semester is finally over. It's summer time! Yeah!
I know a lot had happened when I was gone, and not all of them was good thing. But ,trust me, I really don't want to miss anything. I don't want to be a girl who just come back and say "I love you",wishing everything will be fine...but, I love you. Especially for you, neechan ^^ *hugs*
So, please, don't hate me >< I was writing this and watching The Grudge at the same time...*shiver* here come the bathroom scene...
Don't mind me, okay?
What I want to say is...

Finally the CMDY site was updated! *sigh* And this time, the update is so awesome! The surprise in Eisen's eye, then Yasuaki's face softened and the glittering patterns. This page is perfect! All I and my friend can say is "Awwwwww!".

And then I wonder about the next update. And all I can think is "It's gonna be long before this story come to an end." "You said that because you never finish something in your life."- that's my BF.

The bad thing is, she's right. I am used to creating new things without putting a connection between them. And when I'm writing something, I usually stuck between turning it into something I like, or something others like. Because I don't want to write something just to satisfy myself, but I also want to get a writing style-and I can't do that by listening to other's opinions all the time, can I ?

As I writing this, I realized : we all write for what we lacks. And what did I lack ? Satisfaction. Or maybe just something to prove my existence. So I will try to write what I like in what others like. For example: there's a million ways to write a confession scene. But I prefer that couple standing under a snowing sky, holding hand, and it all end with one line "Silence speak louder than word".

Come to think of it, maybe it's why I couldn't finish a fiction. I lived beyond one's income.
So, maybe it's time to finish some work, and after that, there's nothing can compare with the feeling of saying "Owari!"

As for the fictions here, I must confess, sometimes, it get so hard writing them out that I just want to give up. It was fun when I thought of them in my head. It's like the characters are watching me making up silly things about them while laughing. They're the spectators. I got that reason to keep writing. But honestly, the language barrier is sooo huge, sometimes I imagine it like this :

Then I think about the reason why I started writing English fics. Because at where I live, there's no Harutoki fan. I was lonely. So I want to meet the Harutoki fans that makes funny captions, writes awesome fics, collects amazing pictures...whom I was watching secretly ever since I found livejournal.

In short : Because I want to meet you.
By the way, I'm not telling you who is 'you' *chuckle*

Thank you for everything.