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31 January 2009 @ 07:09 pm
Some people bring out the worst in me...  
Once again. It's her.
Okay, previously, I said that I did mean something for her...I take it back. How can I means anything to her if she never listened to a word I said ??? Because if she had listened, she will know that I'm not a type of person who can be 'not a best friend but still a friend'. Because I know nothing will ever be the same. I can hear her giggles while reading that message. I know she is doing this only to make her, probably her parents, feel better. Sorry but I make my own choices. My parents don't have anything to do with this. It was supposed to be between me and her. Now the whole school knew about our breakup. She want to make it big, don't she ?
What's the point ? I know my breaking up with her is really bizarre because she is the annoying one but I'm the one who suddenly exploded and said 'bye-bye'. It's like she is the torch and I'm the fire. The ironic thing is that I always think I have to put myself down 'cause that's the primary thing in a relationship. And so the reason for my putting up with her insults is because............
That's just it. My mind go blank when I come to this sentence.
I warned her to leave me alone. But she continue to show up with that giddy attitude. If only she listened and see me for who I am, she will know what I want to do to her at that time. That's it. I'm sick of those people. I will not push away my wishes for them. And my wishes is for her to suffer.
I know there might be consequences, but this is something I truly wanted : her suffering. The threats will come to her first thing tomorrow...Hope SHE get the message.

Look like these days this journal got nothing but rants....I will get my writing mood back. The love for writing and creating things that weren't there before's still there.
Love you,
Lady Lunaticeon ( just want to show off my new username ^^ at www.fusionfall.com - a MMORPG)

P.S: but please, call me Pu-chan or just Pu. That's still Imouto-chan for you, neechan *hugs*!
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Current Location: Holding out for a hero...
Current Mood: numb
Current Music: Pushing me away - Linkin Park
 
 
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btamamura: Nuriko_cry[info]btamamura on February 1st, 2009 02:55 am (UTC)
Imouto-chan...I don't know what to say after reading this... *hugs* That's all I can do...

Daisuki, Imouto-chan, eien ni.
kisekiss: stay[info]kisekiss on February 7th, 2009 09:45 am (UTC)
Thank you for not questioning me like others. Though I know it's reasonable, I'm too upset to talk properly. Worse, all that came out might be the result of my anger and not what I wanted to say.
Still, I can't say thank you enough, neechan. Please, don't worry about me. This is something I must do alone.
lambgrass[info]lambgrass on February 3rd, 2009 12:27 am (UTC)
Maybe I don't know how you feel, but I've kind of had a friendship like that. Actually, many. I don't understand how people can be so unaware of other people's emotions. As the years go by, instead of people breaking away from this "simple kind of life", the world is getting more and more unaware. I dunno if that makes sense. Basically, everyone is ignoring the darkside of humans, and nature Hmm, nope, that didn't make any sense.

If you have the time, listen to this Forty Six & 2 - Tool . I don't know what kind of music you like, but I'm sure you'd like this song.
kisekiss: stay[info]kisekiss on February 7th, 2009 09:38 am (UTC)
Well, in that case, good luck to them because no matter how they ignore that 'darkside', it's not gonna disappear. Seriously.
I don't see it that way. People are sensitive with others's feelings. But only when their well-being are involved. In my case, I think it's much less serious and not worth wasting time to discuss. What's done is done.
Hey, amazing song. I'm not picky about thing like music. What matter is whether if a new song can stay after my present mood is over. In this case, it probably will. In the mean time, how about Cat And Mouse by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus ? It's equally amazing.
 
 

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